.:I Loved You More:.

I tried. I tried to ignore the pain I felt back then. But that, that was then. Now is now. I loved him. I really tried. I tried to not think about it. But that, like so many things I've tried, failed. I'm a failure. I tried. I really tried. But I guess I was in it for the thrills. And the thrills are not at all thrilling. Those 'thrills' are more frightening than thrilling. I will myself not to cry. I promised. He promised. To never break my heart. But I guess promises are made to be broken. And so are hearts. I guess this is where I get off. I tried. I tried so hard. But tried is oh-so different than succeeded. Which is exactly what I didn't do. Succeeded. I didn't. He did. He won the battle. He's the victor and I'm his doormat. He won. I lost. I lost him.